Issues + med card

Lately I've been having issues especially with the one I like. My Love and I haven't been talking for a while now and well I still feel the same. But we were supposed to have the same dance class this semester and I my Love didn't show, turns out, my love dropped the class. Most likely it's because I'm in it. And I know I'm the one who started ignoring and avoiding first but what fucking else can I do. My Love is taken by another and is treated like shit and second to video games and bull shit. It pisses me the fuck off. I've been having anxiety problems, anorexia and bulimia relapses, and insomnia. So I decided to get my medical marijuana card. It was so fucking easy to get like sure I have legit problems but some dude went in and said his wrists hurt and that was all. He still got it. This only temporarily solves my problem though, because when I'm high, I won't know there's a problem. But deep down inside, I know I'm totally fucked.
I Still Love You  ♥ It's rather kind of sad though.

Irvine Visit for Larper

This weekend was pretty nice. I've been feeling like shit due to said Love interest and I fuckin hate it. We're not even talking anymore and it hurts. So I decided to visit Larper in UC Irvine. I learned some new things like how to play "rage cage" which is an  awesome drinking game. I got totally hammered it was crazy. I was told I did things I don't even remember doing >..< So that means I had a good night xp But that next day hang over headache is terrible. I spend all day feeling like shit and wanting to nap but I couldn't. Before I left Irvine, Larper and I decided to visit the Spectrum. The Spectrum is an utterly badass out door mall that's just womps on any I've ever been to before. I got some new septum piercings at a Hot Topic and I got some T.U.K Creepers too (which I've been wanting for literally fucking ever xO) This weekend was actually pretty decent thanks to that. But now, it's time to face the harsh reality that is my Love is coming back in a few hours, we're not talking, we have a class together this semester, school starts this week, and I still feel the same. Now ain't that about a bitch.
I'm So Sorry. But I Love You ♥

Accidents >..< Painful

I know i haven't blogged in a while and that's due to the fact that I haven't really had much to say other than I miss my love, my family came to visit and my brother brought me a shot glass and a badass pipe, the McFatFuck is moving out, and I've been working out a lot. But finally, something rather interesting happened. I was out running an 8mile and during about my 6th mile I get hit by a car. I'm a rather small person weighing only about 114-120lbs so I got flung into the air and hit the ground. You would think I should have been on the ground in pain and the person in the car would have gotten out to check on me and be crying out of fear of my possible death, hospitalization, or lawsuit; however, instead I decided to not make a scene and keep running. I didn't even look back to see if the car stopped. You can call it a hit and run xp After I was hit I got up and ran so why not xD It's not the first time I've been hit by a car. I use to do BMX, rollerblading, skateboarding, and I'm also a runner so in my life time I believe I've been hit about 6 times. As I casualty to to a friend about it on a status, my love decides to text me about it trying to be all worried and shit even though we haven't talked in about a week because I was told I was no longer cared for. I ignored the messages. It hurts to do so, but I don't know what else to do. Being in love with someone you can't have sucks ass and is way more painful than getting hit by a car and an 8mile run. So what will happen when my love comes back and school starts. We have Dance 101 together so I don't know what I will do.
I Still Love You ♥

Some Disney Shit

So one of my apartment mate's mom is a crazy ass bitch. I'll do fucking anything to avoid being stuck with this fucking lady complaining and bitching about everything and saying it's impeding her baby's education and what not. That bitch is a mothafucking adult now fucking stop the over protective I care about my baby bullshit. Asswhipe will never learn to be an adult if not given the chance. Also, the McFatFuck's weight problem and grades is nobody else's but McFatFuck's. You can't blame that shit on us keeping him up. The fucker does it for shit's and giggles, should've thought looked into what being in a frat/sorority mean you dumb fucking bimbo. Ughh Whatever. Long story short, my RA and I walk 17 miles to Disney to avoid the fuckers mom. Then I still went out for a 6 mile run and body workout. Get on dat level doe :3
Dear my love, I'm fucking pissed at you and fucking hate you.
I still love you though. ♥

Little Tokyo xD

I haven't been blogging for a few days and that's because I stayed at a friend's house for a few days. We didn't really do anything at all except for one day go to Little Tokyo xD It was my first time going and first time riding a public train. We went out for ramen and obviously I couldn't really eat much since I'm on a diet. If you're someone who likes their meet with the fat still on it then you can eat there but I can't do that so all I had was some weird salad kind of thing and noodles.We also went to a few anime stores and I bought these posters down below xD There was so much awesome shit there it was hard not to spazz out >..< But then when I was buying the posters there was this super cute guy at the counter who helped me that looked like Yasu from Acid Black Cherry. Before I left I told him he was very cute in japanese (Anata wa totemo kawaii desu), blushed like crazy and spazzed and ran into a wall. It was terrible >..< He blushed too though and thanked me for the compliment xp I almost died. Hahaha I'm back now though, and realize how much I miss someone xo My love will be back from Japan soon though. I'm dying here alone xo I can't wait to watch things together :3
Love You ♥ Miss You x3

New Years

I took a picture of the sky that my love adores so much. I'm on top of our spot sitting and thinking of you. I've never been able to find importance in this day, sure the year has changed but it's only been a day. This day is only special when you spend it with special people. Yet I'm here alone still, just thinking of you.

People, enough with the whole "New Year New Me" shit. We all know your New Year's Resolution is going to fall to shit like the Roman Empire. Only difference is that you weren't great before hand. You're just going to keep being that fat ass tub of lard instead of going to gym like you said, you'll keep being a bitch, and you're not going to quit drinking nor smoking...deal with it.

I've made up something to do as kind of a New Year's Resolution but the difference is I can pull it off and I'll explain. I'm a four time Valley Champion Cross Country and Track runner. I was suppose to run for my university until I got injured. It's been since July 19 since I've done real exercise. I was at 60 miles a week and had to stop. I started a week ago but I been putting crazy work into my body. My goal is for my body to look as well as it did when I was running. I've been dieting, and running only 2 miles a day because my knee still can't handle more than that. But one day I'll get there. So I will make it. I'm not a dumbass with a stupid New Year's Resolution, I have a goal I want to accomplish.

Well Happy New Year's to those who care about the day. :3
So Happy New Year's to you, My Love.
Daisuki ♥