Seriously???

Holy fuck balls I can't believe what I did last night. Yes I did just check my previous blog post to confirm it. Last night,,,,,,,we made,,,,,,,fucking special brownies >..< I can not fucking believe this shit. It was crazy, now that I think about it, I still don't know where the fuck my bike is. Also, that's the reason I have to spend Christmas 100% alone this year, all because I don't know where my bike is so that I can get to the train station. What horse shit. I'm not using this as an excuse to keep doing the stupid things I've been doing but hey since I"m going to be here all alone for a few weeks then why the fuck not fuck myself up. With thinking about the one I love and can't have, not having anything to do, not being able to go home from Christmas and New Years, and knowing there's a high possibility that my bike was stolen.......I don't want to be able to think clearly. I'm very sorry if I disappoint you. =[
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